I used to be different. I used to take it all in. There wasn’t anything I hadn’t tried.
(light a cigarette).
I had so much fun. (exhale) I was so careless. I did so many things without thought; every night was something completely new.
I was her. You know, that girl that always smiled and no matter what happened, never worried. I was never the type to frown, worry, cry. I was always dancing.
I didn’t know who sang the song I danced to. It didn’t matter. It didn’t affect me. (pause) Nothing did. I was ice.
It was like I jumped into the rabbit hole every night and into wonderland, my very own wonderland. I chased the rabbit, that little white rabbit. (laugh)
I don’t think I have to say what he gave me when I caught him.


All entertainers are just clowns in the end.