just existing.

So lately I feel like this.
I'm just existing. No calls, no parties, no friends coming over, nothing.
No, "why haven't you been to school?"
No, "it looks like you've been crying".
No nothing. It's not like I seek atencion, but sometimes, people need it when they're not feeling good. And I'm not feeling good. Actually, people always need atencion. Just to be part of a group of friends or something.
And I'm not a part of anything. I'm just here, sitting infront of the computer and quitting school, no one lifts an eyebrow. I haven't been out of my house for about a couple of months, and no one has called me or anything.
I don't like being ignored, and don't think I've done anything. Maybe I'm selfish. Maybe that's it.
Or maybe I just don't like being alone. Because nobody likes to be alone, and even less when they usually aren't.
I don't want to just exist if I don't have a reason to.